Sunday, July 28, 2013

firsts...with my second.

when we received averys diagnosis, i knew there were going to be "firsts" we would miss out on with her. and I thought we had already met them through Nolan for the most part. and then last week I took him to his first swim lesson. i wasnt prepared for it to be such a huge moment for me.

our neighbor has a grandson who is about Nolan's age and he was going to be visiting for the last two weeks or so of July.  his grandma asked me if Nolan might like to take a few swim lessons while he was in town and I thought sure-that would be great.  She was willing to take them both (because I would be at work) and I was pumped about it. the price was right and we went to visit and I was impressed. Nice new place, clean, all lessons.  sign me up.

So last saturday we headed out.  we get there early and wait for them to be called. lots of swim lessons are going on at all levels. it is packed.  the kids are so excited. so they get called and head off to their lane.  the grown ups are allowed to go in the pool area but most stay behind the glass and watch from afar. Red was home with Avery and he wanted some pictures and videos.  I wasnt happy with the videos I was getting from so far away so I went in to get closer. 

I sat in the plastic chair and pointed my phone towards their lane.  I took a few photos and a couple videos and it just hit me. this swell of pride and the tears popped into my eyes. they just popped there! and I thought "this is one of those moments. the ones that erase all the crap and the stress and the irritation of young kids" I was so proud. it was awesome to see him in there, following the directions so easily, so athletic. seeing how easy it is for him and how his brain just works. and instead of feeling shitty about never having that experience with Avery it just felt good.  I knew this moment was one of those moments that Ill never forget. It felt so amazing.

then it was over and he rinsed off and got dressed and went to the front desk to retrieve his ribbon.  We said goodbye to the neighbors and got in the car.  I asked him "Nolan what should we do with your ribbon?  It is your first one!" and you know what he said?  He said:  "I want to cut it in half and give half to sissy b/c she couldn't come to swim lessons". 

He will never ever know how he made that day even better with that comment. It all just came full circle. this theme of "getting easier". I am so fully aware that we never would have had that moment if Avery wasn't Avery.
nolan on the left.


Unknown said...

Wow Erica that was very touching to hear..brought tears of joy and also Sadness

Colleen said...

God I love Nolan. So glad that the theme is getting easier, so truly glad for that . xx

mj said...

Oh stop it right now. That is ridiculous and I'm bawling my eyes out. Cut the ribbon in half. Is he even for real!? I love those kids of yours!

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