It felt good to just ignore the festivities for half the day. Until I was nearing the end of my run-I had decided to keep going in a loop instead of doubling back and ended up running past parade goers on their way home. What is wrong with this picture? I honestly was a little confused. I think I may have even forgotten that it was a holiday altogether. I start to notice the kids and the families and the normalcy.
Im running. Red is playing golf. My kids are with the sitter. But we should be at the flipping parade. Because that is what you do when you have kids. I just kept running. Maybe this is progress? Maybe we are just figuring out what works for our family and this is it? The kids were happy and none the wiser.
Later that evening we had plans to attend the 4th of July party at the golf club that we have been attending since before we were members. It is truly one of my favorite nights of the year. I wrote about it last year and the struggles we have encountered trying to "be a family" and take her with us. This year I decided we would just leave her at home with our sitter. We are so lucky we have a sitter that is willing to give up her 4th of July to stay with Avery-that made it so much easier...but it was still hard to walk out the door once again with just Nolan and leave my baby behind. I sat with her that day and told her what the plan was. She seemed actually pretty pumped that she didnt have to go.